Just a Thought on Procrastination

Ah. Another year, another blog post. Now, I think I may have gotten to the bottom of my blogger’s block. Apologies for incoherence, I’m writing this at midnight and I’m tired as heck!

I’m a procrastinator (and not proud of it). The more I think about doing something, the more it gets pushed down my agenda. I tell myself to write another blog post, but… ugh. It’s not like I hate blogging or anything—I love it, but I guess I’m putting some pressure on myself.

It can be said the same thing about reading. I pressure myself to read, but then again, I haven’t been reading as much. It might be because I get distracted by things like Netflix, podcasts, or YouTube… *sigh*. It’s easy to lose track of time by streaming information and I guess it’s easier to listen than to read (because I’m getting lazy—sue me!).

However, I don’t want to put any more pressure on myself. I suppose I’ve gotten a little timid because other bloggers are racking up followers and pushing out as many blog posts as possible, and I feel like I’m being left behind. I don’t want to care about that anymore. I have to remember that this is a hobby and something I want to do during my downtime! I also want to ease myself back to reading, so sometime last year, I splurged my disposable income on some novels I’ve had my eye on for ages. Here’s a happy louse with some of her purchases below:

Oh look, a halo made of books and a doofus-y face to boot!

I decided to do this so I can revive my interest in reading again.

Currently, I’m ready The Haunting of Hill House. Again, I don’t want to pressure myself to read and complete novels in a certain time frame, because that will likely make me procrastinate more (yikes!). Reading is not a race, but rather, something like meditation. Something to do at one’s own pace during their own time.

Anyway, this is just another diary entry to put my thoughts into words… I miss everyone and I miss blogging. Belated Happy New Year and let’s make 2021 a little more productive!

So yeah…

Well peeps, it’s time for another update on TABL! Hey, I know I’ve been away for a long time despite my last post declaring that I’m going to revive this blog, but a lot of things happened in my personal life that made me put my digital baby in the back burner.

Firstly, there’s the issue that is gripping our whole planet right now: COVID19. Since I work in a supermarket, I have been flat out at my job since we’re considered essential workers and all. As you can imagine, it’s been super hectic and I’ve been tired and all my motivation to blog has run out.

Secondly, my father passed away last month. So my family and I had to spend time preparing the final farewell and important stuff that I won’t get into. We’re still sorting these matters out.

Thirdly, I’m writing this on my phone! My computer has officially shit itself and I need to take it to a repair shop, so phone blogging it is for now. I’m bummed that I don’t know how to align my text to Justified on the app (please help a sister out if you do know), but hey, I’m kinda warming up to the block editor though!

So long story short, a fair amount of shizz has been going on in my personal life, hence why I’ve stopped blogging for a while. I want to slowly ease my way back though, because TABL is my baby and I reaaaalllyy don’t want to abandon it, even if it means that I post updates that no one cares about. The world is in a tough place right now, with this pandemic going on and I can imagine that it’s affecting us whether mildly or intensely. I’m just glad that blogging is one way that we can still connect with one another during these dire times.

Anyway, I’m going to keep this entry short and sweet. I’ll try and do something for my blog’s up and coming second birthday. But for now, keep safe and stay healthy, and I’ll see you next time.

Ramble, ramble, ramble

This post is just me putting my thoughts into words.  I’ll be talking about a few things here.  Firstly, I’ll have a few updates regarding what I want to do with TABL, and I also want to share my thoughts about the ethics regarding bookseller lists and publishing due to an incident that happened a few months ago.

Continuing on with the ‘texts I’ve actually read’ reviews, I’m planning to review T.S. Eliot’s individual poems in a series I’ll dub T.S. 1888.  You’ll know it’s an Eliot review because I’ll preface each one with a bad photoshop parody of Taylor Swift’s album (please don’t sue me, Taylor).  Also, I want to write and collect my poems and self-publish my collection.  I’ll probably start off with a small selection and make it a free e-book, and then later I’ll sell the revised edition (including new poems) at maybe 99c.

Now, I know I’m way late to board this train, but I want to talk about Lani Sarem and how she peaked at #1 on the New York Times Bestseller List.  Later on, it was revealed (after clever internet sleuthing) that she bought her way to the top.  Typically, Sarem denied this allegation and maintains her innocence.  There are already reviews for her book Handbook for Mortals, and from excerpts that I’ve read, I’m not going to say that Sarem’s writing sucks.  “It needs improvement” is a more encouraging criticism.

However, this is me being a nitpicker and I am slightly bothered that the protagonist is a too-obvious author avatar, as the description of the protagonist matches Sarem to a T, and don’t forget the annoying and all too prevalent i’m-plain-in-appearance-but-for-some-reason-everyone-thinks-i’m-hot trope.

It also came to everyone’s attention that the author aims to have Handbook for Mortals made into a film, wherein Sarem herself intends to portray her protagonist.  Since

  1.  considering that the protagonist (with the exotic name Zade) is an all-too-apparent author stand-in and
  2. there seems to be a plan already in execution to make this movie adaption happen, with Sarem starring as Zade (it has its own IMDB page)

I can’t help but think that the author wants to live out some sort of fantasy or is it just me?

Hmm….

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An Explanation for the Unwanted Hiatus

Ah.  It’s been a while, hasn’t it?  The Heart of Darkness review is still sitting in the drafts section, but I haven’t got the motivation to continue writing it.  Lately, I’ve been going through bouts of anxiety because of the stress of assignments and exams, and there are a few personal things going on in my life that have have made me an overthinking, neurotic mess.  I keep trying to push myself to write the review, but I don’t think it’s going to happen (YET!)

Reason for that is: I had to read this for my Modernist Literature subject and while I do get the sentiment behind the story, and the context, I just can’t be arsed to write a detailed review on it because I’m just not really into it enough to write a review, and my thoughts on the book have gone stale (sorry).  We read T.S. Eliot’s The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock, and while I am biased since I love Eliot, I kinda want to write a review on his collections first, and depending on that, I may re-read HoD to refresh my sentiments and finish writing my review on this.  I’ve also got new books that I’ll read during the holidays and post my reviews on them.  I’m gonna try and make this blog work, guys!

Anyway, to make up for the lack of content being posted here, I’ll publish a short, simple poem that I wrote in February about the anxieties of being alone in a city of struggle.  So, without further ado, watch this space and see a poem published next (after I find a royalty-free image to accompany it).

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